im an owl...meow meow meow (poem)

i said meow meow meow because i dont know what owls say..hahah

its 7.10am and i am still not sleepy..
like wtf man..why the hell i cant sleep..i really dont know why..
when i try to sleep..my stupid melo brain keeps thinking about stuff
i think i think to much..hahah
i must know when to stop thinking
looks like i cant sleep..rite?
so now..im going to write a poem =)
im just going to write whatever comes out my little brain of mine.hahah
so, GET READY

BTW..THIS POEM IS NOT ABOUT ME!!..THIS IS MY STYLE OF WRITING..SO DONT GO THINKING WRONG STUFF ABOUT ME....I JUST LIKE WRITING POEMS..HAHAH..IT MIGHT BE GAY AND ALL..BUT EVEN WILLIAM SHACKSPEAR DID IT..HOPE 1 DAY I CAN BE AS GOOD AS HIM..HAHAH..CHEERS TO THAT..btw, in all my poems i did so far..there is a code in it..i think..that's y it means so much..that is what that makes it fresh =)

I was left in this black hole by the person i cared for
And i do get this often, yes i do
Maybe u think im gone melodramatic?
Melodramatic us say?..maybe it is true
It is like, it just only happened, but it ended so fast
Songs of sorrow i hear to heal my wounds
Sing it on a dark day i will
Inspired by the one true love i had
Never to say, but to do i will
Go away i shall to a far place
Along with the sorrows that u gave me
Go go go...go far away..that is what she said to me
I left her with a smile on my face but a scare in my heart
Rum i drank to take away my guilt
Lonely i shall stay the rest of my life

hope u guys like it..give ur opinion..how does it sounds like?

i think i shall go for a swim now..hahah

for now, im done
-SicX-

Its fun being emo sometimes =)

do u know why its fun to be emo?
its because, for me that is, it makes me think
its like, ur mind goes free..u will think about the past and the future..what u did and what are u going to do
y im i so emo now?..hahah..emo..that word is so normal..i think ill use melodramatic =)
yes, im MELODRAMATIC !!!
i dont know why im like this
wait..i think i do
but i dont know if i should tell u ppl..hahaha
wait..i think i should
ok..but i will tell u guys is code..hahah..cause some ppl are going to read it that might get effected by it..hahah

i think i am missing something that i lost long time ago..few weeks ago..somebody reminded me about that..and it felt good..hahah..
I really dont know wtf im talking about..but that is just me..a fresh melodramatic guy

i think most people get melodramatic it is because they think life is not fair to them..i know alot of people like this..this includes me..hurmm..well, i got to admit it someday
U see now..u say life is unfair to u? u dont get what u want?
at my melodramatic stage..i was thinking..what about kids that have no parents, no food, no place to live, no body to love..u think that their life is fair??..tell me that..i think our life is much better than them..so we cant say that our life sucks
i think..we people with a family should be happy cause we have people to look after us, care for us, to pick us up when we are down
so, i think we should be happy with our life and dont go around saying life sucks..

OMG kel..u gave me that song..now u make me more melodramatic..screw u !!!!!!!!!

being melodramatic is good sometimes..its fun but sometimes u just want to sit down think..it is good to think..open up..cause who knows, u might find something new in ur life =)

F.R.E.S.H.F.U.N

I fucking dint sleep for 40 hours !!!!!!! like wtf
this is what i did for that 40 hours

Lets see
i woke up at 5pm on Thursday..i was just sitting in my room stoning like shit
my cous came back and said he and Greg are going to MOS..my dad was in johor and mom slept early..i was like, what the hell..IM GOING TO MOS..
Dave and Greg went in early cause they wanted to go in for free..haahha..and the are pass the legal age...damm those ppl..dont worry..1 more year for me =)
owh ya..i saw Kavi and her frens there..i dint know they were coming..then Sundeep, Shaun and KY came..btw..we are all underage..
lucky we had our HK boy Shaun there to help us out =) ..thx Shaun !!
he know ppl that know ppl that knows somebody..hahah
ill skip all the crap..in the end ..we all got in
when i enter the MOS dance floor
i was like WTF !!!!!!!! ...it is so freaking fresh sial...hahah
i think we entered MOS around 12..had to wait for 2 hours..*sigh*
in MOS i danced like krazy..lol
i had a great time !!!
seriously...got to meet new people..bottom line,it was fun
i spent around rm100...we entered for free..but the drinks are fucking expensive..c'mon 23 bucks for 1 shot..i was like dammm..but its all good
the fucked up part is that the stop the music at 3am SHARP !!!
after that we went to the mamak..cause kavi wanted to get air limau..hahah..
after mamak we went KFC..hahah..well, we are Malaysians..what do u think =)
its was 5.30am..i was like WTF..my mom is going to wake up soon and i told her im at the movies..(what movie finishes at 5am..hahah)..
8 ppl had to go in a Satria..we were going to my house..cause the girl had no where else to go..we waited at the pool for awhile..guard chased us away..cause the say ppl are complaning..hahaha..YEA RITE LIKE WE ARE GOING TO BELIVE THAT
went to my house..saw tv for awhile then i and greg walked to girl to get a cab

after that..i dint want to sleep..cause..i know, if i sleep, i will wake up damm late..i mean..very late..after that is all boring stuff nth much..night time i and kel when to genting klang to eat and shisak..Genting Klang has the cheapest and best shisak around..few hours ago i and kel were seeing max payne..its was..erm..its was BORING..hahah..after that stupid movie..we saw ALI G IN DA HOUSE...this movie was fucking fresh..hahah..u should see it..its funny!!..

now im writing my blog..cause long time dint update..and Mr.Kel is playing my PSP (btw, he is bored cause his GF is in HK..kesian him =P)..i think they both are meant for each other..i hope they last a long time..RESPECT..the fight a lot ..but in the end..the get back together..i like him for that..it takes a man to do that...respect..hahah..btw, she is not bad ..lol..props to my main man.(sry for all the hip hop slang..just saw ali g..still in the mood)

owh ya..My cous and gred went to MOS today..fuck them..2 days in MOS..hahaha..lucky them..i just called them and they said they are high so they ask me to call back soon..how long do u want me to wait?..

OMG...its 5.50am..and i am still not sleepy..kel is going to go back soon..i think we can be owls..hhahah..fresh owls..owh ya, more ppl are using the fresh word now..hahaha..im so lame

ok then..this is what i did for 40 hours..a lot of thing huh..
the conclusion is, if u dont sleep for 40hours..u can do alot more things than sleeping for 8 hours a day, the hypothesis is accepted =)

btw..kel and i said..we sleep when the suns come up and wake up when the sun goes down

till my next post..sicx out
ps. pls mind my grammer.i dint sleep for 40 hours..dude!!..what do u think..lazy want to read back..i just wrote what was on my fresh mind

Hahahah..im so lame

hahaha..i was just reading my OLD blog..and i feel i was so damm fucking lame..haizz..im happy i did a new 1

erm..what to talk about..lets see..
ok..i know!!..im so damm fucking bored..even it is after SPM..live WTF...hahah..but for the pass few days..i have been kinda busy, wait...VERY busy..had been going to the studio almost every day..its nice..feeling the life of a dancer..dancing everyday ...but im still no PRO yet...i will try my very best..never to give up =)

its 2.30 and im not sleepy..now days im sleeping at 4am and waking up at 3pm..hahah..im a bat!!
woot woot
what should i do now..i think ill go and see a Movie..what movie..maybe harry potter..long time dint see...why the hell im i telling u all this...u dont give a shit rite?...yes..i know what u are thinking about..because im Dr.Know...hahah

btw..next Tuesday is Our big day (our meaning the crew)..we must dance on stage with REIZO ZEN..hahah..im so lucky..he is a freaking good dancer..i hope 1 day i can be like him...1 DAY (pause and dreams)

lets recap on pass things..
so far nobody special..thats normal for me
still dint get my lips pierced (maybe next year)
owh ya...im still ur simple guy next door..hahahahah
i like the simple guy next door word..its so..like..erm..how do i put it..its just plain..haiyo..u get the point

BAD news !!!
my cous just told me im not simple guy next door material...FUCK !!!...hahaha

Sometimes also i get left out in the studio..hahah..i think it is because i dont speak chinese..haha..im like the only Indian there..hahah..but i still like it there..i like the people there.. p.s Jacob sometimes can be gay..hahahah..but still super funny (dont tell anybody)

ok la..mau gerak..gua nak pegi tengok "harry potter"...see u guys later...stay fresh sial !!!

Empty

Empty
what is empty to do with this
empty is the thing in everything
everything is empty
even in a rock..empty is there
that rock u use the throw at ur love 1..yes that rock
the rock is a symbol or the burden that u carry
to make some happy
to do the impossible
wait..im talking crap
yes crap i said
the crap is also known as shit
shit this life
im shitting it because it is lifeless
lifeless is fact that it has no life in life
yes i said it..UR LIFE IS A LIE
what is the reason u live for..
wait..u dont know..u know why..because its a lie
this is just a way for the man to get control
POWER TO THE PEOPLE
back to the topic
EMPTY
to be or not to be is the key to life
life is a black abysses
black like a black hole that never ends
its like the shit hole u see every morning
it never ends!!!
laugh at me?..yes..that is what u are doing
i know...i know everything..thats why they call me Dr.Know
knowing the existence of life and all around it
i will be the Nobel price and be Nobel someday
Nobel enough to kill a cat
"meow meow meow"..that what the cat said to me
i said to him "Fuck you..no body meows at me..Dr.know"
and i kicked the cat and i felt like a MAN
yes...IM A MAN
cause u dont see a lot of people kicking a cat
MEOW MEOW MEOW
thats all it can say
hahahah..i feel like i rule the world
wait..i do rule the world
yes..im Zeus
kings of kings...no body dares to challenge me
well..looks like im king now..so u all have to OBEY me...
yes..i said it OBEY..
i want OBEYness
to be or not to be..
only i can say that
now..for my last act in life.
ill leave this life..to get a better life of lifeless..
MEOW (stabs his self)

So fucking happy school is over

i have been waiting 5 fucking year for this..u know y?..u fucking hate my school (SMK Seri Titiwangsa).hahah..yes..i said it..i fucking hate it!!...wow...its good to get it of my chest..

You know y?
i think la..its because my group of frens in school are not my type of friends..the only friend that share the same interest in me is why friend Victor..he's the best..hahah...all my other friends are ok..they are nice...but we dont share the same thing..cant talk to them about anything..haizz...and i think i lost a good friend for a stupid reason...he seems less close to me now days..haha...i dont care...im of the college soon =)..*sigh*..other than that..im in a fucking boy school..hahah.my whole fucking life i have been in a boy school..this sucks!!...cant wait to go out of college..to tell u the truth..i feel i have more close frens in other school than in my own school...hahahah..u people might think im a fucked up person..that maybe ture..btw..i got PLKN 2nd batch..im kinda happy..well..thats all i got to say for today..and i more thing..SPM is over..yeah~!!...but i still feel bored sometimes.=(...

till then ppl
SicX out

SPM is 2more...dang....

SPM is 2more and i am online...WTF am i doing...fuck me!!!....hahaha...2more is BM and sej...im so dead...good luck 2 all my friends that are sitting for SPM...GOOD LUCK mother fuckers !!!!! =)...hope they do well

P.S i dont want to go for NS !!!!!!!!..dang again..