My wonderful dream

i had this wonderful dream just now
it was me with a girl that i think i know, im not sure, cause it was very fuzzy..but i think i know that person
i was talking 2 her about something


than she ask me "how do you know what is real and what is not real?"
she said "maybe this is an illusion, maybe u are an illusion, even me"
than she kept playing with my mind, going behind me, beside me, in front of me in a blink of an eye
i dint know what was happening, at 1 moment, she was on top of me and i was lying down, she gave me a kiss
she ask me again, "is this an illusion??"..i answered back saying "no, this is not an illusion, its the real thing"
She asked me "how do you know if it is real?"
i told her cause i can feel ur body, your heat, and ur face
she said "NO, this is an illusion", she told me something b4 she left, she said "i must learn 2 tell the difference between reality and fiction"

After that dream, when i woke up, i was thinking, maybe my life is an illusion, i will never know, i must know what i can get and what i cant get, what is real and fake, what feelings are real or fake


lol..well, its only a dream, but it was nice, and the girl was very beautiful, some people many not think so, but everybody has their own taste

IT WAS ONLY A DREAM

Random-ness

i dont know what 2 write now, no poems, no topic, no pics..
ill just do a recap..hahah

CNY
nth much happen, dint get any ang pow(i'm not Chinese, dint expect anything)
just went back 2 my dads home town, Ipoh
the only interesting thing i did there was DOTA..hahah
played like for 8 hours, i seriously had nothing to do
bought DVD
just about all

I had college on wednesday
most col's are having holidays for a week =(
but its all good, nothing 2 do at home
have been stoning at the house, its better i go to col
get to meet friends and go to the place we all get kinky =)..hahah

Thursday
Today was nice, i dint have math class..
Mr.Joel(math teacher) injured his leg
will be going 2 MOS later
hope everything goes well

till my next post
-SicX out-

Light

Walking, i keep walking, never knowing what awaits me at the end
is there a end too this road?
ill never know, i just have to find out
A risk i have too take
too find out what nobody can tell me
If i don't, 1 day, i will be asking myself, what was at the end of the road?
Do what my heart says
nothing less, ill just do it
Fail i might, but knowing that i tried, that's the best part
The road looked dark, scary, full with dust
a light i saw at the end, it called out my name
it was hinting me to take that path
shall i take it?, not knowing what is that light
took it i did, it was hard to walk in this road
but, towards the end, it got better
the feeling that ill reach the end, i had in me
i reached the end, what i saw?
i saw the light, it was brighter than the sun
it was beautiful, like nothing i ever seen in my life
i was happy i took that road
now, i know what was at the end
i will live 2 tell this tale
saying "I found the light it my life, I'm always happy when that light is beside me"
*PAUSE*
it all went blank.....
it was a dream, only a dream
i was confused,was that dream a sign for me??
2 find my real light?
I think it was
ill find that road and make it a reality
i will find my light
ill take any chance that i see 2 find this light, searching up, down, left, right
if only this dream was real =)
You would already be in my hands

I'm happy and i dont give a fuck

happy as i can be
This feeling had evaded me long enough
i finally found it back
im happy i did
IS IT A GIRL U MAY ASK?
nah !!!
im happy cause im free
no worrys, just my self
i like it this way
be my self, not the man wearing a mask
now, that im free
i can focus on things that really mater to me in life
my passion
dint get this feeling in a long time
im lovin it™
i dont care about the things that i cared so much about last time
FUCK IT !!!
my life, my way, on the high way
never let it get in the way of my passion that i love in life
my passion comes 1st, than only you..hahah

i dont give a fuck what people say 2 me
"u cant dance... ur 2 big... did you break a bone?..u look ulgy, when people see you the will run"
they talk 2 much..next time i hear that..ill ask them "wanna battle? ass hole"
i do it cause i love it..i feel good when i do it
no girl, no guy can stop me..even if i suck at it..ill keep on trying, until my body cant handle the pain

the thing that i plan to change in my life now is *****, and i think i can do it
as i said.*******
Guess i can say that im a "jakun"..i dont wan to tell you what makes me a jakun..malukan diri je

HELLO WORLD !!!!

Not to be named

Sitting down as time flys

tik tok, tik tok, the clock goes

as i pray for time to fly

it never answers my prayers

So am i, still waiting

waiting to be stunned

Stunned by the look that i desire so much

im waiting and still waiting for that too happen

Sitting down on the floor

looking at people passing by

Hoping i see that face

despite all the waiting, it dint come

Listening to our song over and over again

its on loop and ill keep it that way

people know me as the man that can never be moved

only the sight of that face that can make me move

the sight of this person

makes me complete

never less, never more

im PREFECT

this person

when is not in my presents

lost i feel in this small world

not knowing left, right, up, down

forever sitting at the same spot

still praying

still hopeing

maybe, just maybe, she feels the same way too

Stop the Comments !!

Im just doing this post as a mind opener

I said stop the comments..what comments?
Stop the comments on who is hot and who is not hot
some people like to comment on other people clothing, looks, hair, etc etc
but b4 u do this things...think, by doing this things, u will hurt that persons feelings
that person is a human just like u..everybody has feelings
how u dress, how u look, ur hair..it is all you..be who u are..dont be somebody else
dress how u want..if u like it, good!!..u dont have to change because your fren said u look ulgy in it
and 1 more thing..b4 u comment on others..look in the mirror..do u think you look good??
surely there will be other people in the world commenting about you..so dont simply going around, laughing at people
If u are voted the hottest person alive..then it might be ok..hahah..but nobody can be the hottest person alive..cause everybody has their own taste...
some people like fat, some like thin, some like chubby, some like short, some tall
its ur ****ing choice !!!
what matters?..the thing that matter is you..the thing that makes you, YOU
other thing is weight and looking buff
hahah
take this opened minded ok?
if a person looks so hot !!!..but that person's attitude is like shit..will you go for that person??
ANSWER ME THIS
it does not matter if ur fat..in the long run, the thing that matters is what that is inside of you
i think people just do this to get their "Market" up =)
2 be liked by the other sex

I'm not pointing finger's at anybody..just wanted to do this cause almost every where i go..i here the same thing..i just smile and pretend that im not listening =)

this is a SicX original post™

HELP Orientation Night

the HELP orientation night was fun
got to meet a lot of new ppl
but i was super sleepy !!
woke up at 5.30..went to col
had class at 10 until 12
went for lunch with Katrin and Chris
at Ali maju..hahah
Chris and Aaron had classes at 2.30
so that leaves me and kat
we both went to the library..wanted to check it out (it was boring)
we both found a book on rock history..=)
compared the old rock stars with our self..
told her some lame jokes passed down by my frens..hahah
and she thinks that she is the QUEEN OF FUNNY ...hahah..(yea rite) =P
after that we did bla bla bla..( nothing much )

at 6.30 the orientation night started..i and aaron were late..cause we were at spinky playing CS
Me, aaron and Kat got picked for the 1st game..it was the island game..dont know how to explain..hahah
we lost =(
owh ya..i got chosen for Fear Factor..wakaka
i had to transfer worms and chicken liver into another box..and i won !!
the dance floor opened late..we danced for awhile..nothing much
Myself, aaron, Katrin and Ding Dong =) were dammm tired ...we stayed in HELP from morning till night..hahah
sorry dint have any pics
u can check out kat's blog or Poh lyn's blog if u guys want to see this pics

http://piggyliciouskat.blogspot.com/
http://www.pohlyn-xoxo.blogspot.com/

Run chicken Run and someday ill catch you

1 day there was this chicken that i laid my eyes on
The temptation was high in me to get this chicken
i dont know why..but i really wanted this chicken
i started my chase for this chicken
at 1st i dint know what to do with it if/when i catch it
it was hard..well, this is the 1st time that im doing this chicken thing =)
at 1st it was hard, but exciting
its like..it stop ed, i ran to catch it, but as i was about that catch it, it ran =(
i was like WTF..how on earth i am going to catch this thing
i did not want to give up this easy..i kept on trying and trying
i planed every move that i am going to do the next time i meet this chicken..cause i learn from mistakes
Despite all the failing, it was fun..the fun was never giving up, keep on trying for the thing that i want
1 day, i gave it another shot, i have learned this chicken well, i know all of its moves, what will it do next and where will it go
i trapped the chicken..i was confident that i am going to catch the chicken this time
and..at last i caught the chicken !!!
i said to the chicken "hahaha..u think u can run away from me??..now what am i going to do with you??? "


i think there is a lesson to be learned in this story..some of u might understand..some of u guys might not understand...it might mean that or it might not mean that..it ur choice on what u want the lesson of this story to be..ill just let u people figure out the lesson =)

-SicX out-

Im just not ready

Im just not ready to teach hip hop..
was talking to Jacob on Wednesday
he said that im not ready to teach..
he said that he started teaching 3 years after he became pro!!
3 year!! after pro~~
im not even pro..hahah
but he dint tell it in a bad way..what he said was true..he said that it will be hard for me to explain lines..cause even i dont have good dancing lines (im working on this)..so maybe in a few years i can be like him..hope so =) ...pray for me !!!!

well..im still young..got hope =)
i asked him the average age of a pro dancer at his dance company..he said around 25+
and im only 18..i got a long time 2 go
Jacob might come and teach..but he can only make it on Wednesdays... hope he can make it

today night was fun..went steam boat with Wingz and Ah lue (dance class frens)
talk and talk and talk..lol
went to visit Jacob at the studio after eating..wanted to give him an EGG!!..hahah...but it broke on the way...*sigh*..maybe next time =P
saw 1 dance crew practicing for battle ground..dont know what crew, all girls, so so only..the routine was dull..


oh ya
tomorrow night is orientation night..dont know what are we going to do there..hope it will be fun =)
ill let u guys know what happen on that day



This is the latest pic we took (we have been taking pics every week now days..hahah)

Update time !!

Poh lyn keep asking me 2 update..so ill update..happy?? =)

erm..what to talk, what to say, what to do

ok la..lets do a recap..hahah
college life is fun..but very hard
have to travel from my house 2 col, takes around 2 hours =(
its not like high school life where u get spoon fed..col is where the real work starts
so far so good..hope it goes well the whole year

having orientation night this coming Friday
i really dont know what u do there
ill let u guys know when i go there..hahah
they said u just go there and chill and meet new frens =)..erm..sounds interesting..hahah

and i MIGHT start a hip hop dance club in college
Joshua said the demand is high for it..hope i can meet the demand..lol
ill be under the dance club..so far there is only a Latin dance club
but my problem is that the Latin club is being couch by a pro dancer
and if couch the hip hop club..wont that be like 1 kinda??..hahah
A wise man said "The best way to learn, is to teach"
i really 1 to do it..but..im having 2nd thoughts
My dance teacher ask me to go ahead with it..he said it is a good way to learn
i think ill just do it la..wish me luck guys !!

-SicX out-

Hip Hop dancing, My passion, My life

This is a very special post for me
i will tell my readers about the Hip Hop dance culture that i love so much
the history, the influence and the styles
this post might be long, but read it pls, it will make u understand this culture and the beauty of it



The origin

The dance style primarily associated with hip hop is breaking, which appeared in New York City during the early 1970s and truly became a cornerstone (or "element") of hip hop as a culture. Funk styles, such as popping and locking, evolved separately in California in the 1960-70s, but were also integrated into hip hop when the culture reached the West Coast of the United States.

Though breaking and the original funk styles look quite different stylistically, they share many surrounding elements, such as their improvisational nature, the music they're danced to and the way they originated from the streets, mainly within black and Hispanic communities. These similarities helped bring them, and other street dance styles, together under the same sub-culture, and help to keep them alive and evolving today. Yet, this has not been without problems, often involving the media, such as when the movie Breakin' put all various styles under the label "breakdance", causing a great naming confusion that spawned many heated debates.

In the late 1980s, as hip hop music took new forms and the hip hop subculture established further, new dance styles began appearing. Most of them were danced in an upright manner in contrast to breaking with its many ground moves, and were in the beginning light-feeted with lots of jumping. Some moves hit the mainstream and became fad dances, such as The Running Man, but overall they contributed a lot to later hip hop styles, and heavily influenced the development of house dancing.

During the 1990s and 2000s, parallel with the evolution of hip hop music, hip hop dancing evolved into heavier and more aggressive forms. While breaking continued to be popular on its own, these newer styles were danced upright, and draw much inspiration from earlier upright styles. Classifying these newer hip hop styles as a unique dance style of its own has grown common with larger street dance competitions such as Juste Debout, which includes hip hop new style as a separate category for people to compete in. Today, we see many specific styles that first appeared on their own, such as krumping and clown walking, now being danced and accepted within hip hop new style contexts.

All hip hop styles from the 1980s and beyond are sometimes collectively called new school while the distinct styles from the 1960-70s, such as breaking, uprocking, locking and popping, are considered old school. However, this classification is controversial, and often old school hip hop (or, in some areas, hype) is used solely for the late 1580s upright and jumpy hip hop styles, excluding locking, popping and breaking, and new style hip hop for the heavier hip hop styles of today.

p/s i added some links, check it out if u don't know what it means

Influence

James Brown

The godfather of break dancing was, without doubt, the infamous ‘James Brown’. In 1969 Mr Brown was enjoying massive success with "Get on the Good Foot" the subsequent hustle, or dance, craze that followed was the ‘Good Foot’ soon to be renamed the ‘B-Boy’. As anyone who has seen James Brown perform live at concerts or even seen him on television his dance style can only be described as brilliantly energetic. It is this dance style that shaped break dancing and pointed it in new directions. Dance battles were already established when the B-Boy became popular but its high energy and almost acrobatic nature was ideal for the competitive and heated nature of battling. What followed was what is now referred to as old-style breaking. There were no headspins, no windmills, no handglides and certainly no backspins. Old-style breaking consisted of only floor work, or floor rock, which is much more complex to perform due to incredibly complicated leg moves performed at great speed.

Many of u think Micheal Jackson?, but most of u people don't know that Micheal Jackson's idol is James Brown. Micheal used James Brown style of dancing and made it perfect, but Micheal style was based on James Brown..James said "Micheal is a great kid, he took my style of dancing and took it to the next level"



What Break Dancing actually Involves

Break dancing like all dancing involves moving a certain way in time with music. The actual dancing as evolved considerably from the old-style due to the addition of new ideas and techniques. It involves moving the feet sideways and onto the toes, spinning on the knees, head, elbows, hands, and mocking fighting moves (i.e. kung fu).

There are hundreds of moves but 10 of the more frequently used are listed below: 1. Headspin 2. 1990’s 3. Handglides 4. Backwallovers 5. Flare 6. Crab 7. Six step 8. Windmills 9. Backspins 10. Freeze

Controversy

Hip hop dancing is often criticized for the type of music it can be associated with, as some of the main stream rap music can be seen as degrading or overtly sensual in nature.

Today, many dance studios offer hip hop classes of some sort. They might focus on a specific style, such as breakdancing, or combine elements of various street dance styles. As hip hop dancing is such a broad genre, the teacher has much freedom and room for personal interpretation, and often mixes various styles freely, even mixing them with other dance forms such as jazz dance.

Some criticize the type of teaching at dance studios as being too strict and too choreographed, losing important elements such as improvisation and personal interpretation on the students' side. Because of this, some dislike labeling these dance classes as "hip hop" as it might not actually include all aspects of the traditional hip hop dances, especially when the teacher mixes it with dance styles not originally related to hip hop.

Despite the controversy, studio-choreographed hip hop is still widely accepted today by many.

THE PEOPLE THAT PLAN TO MAKE IT BIG !!!, WE WILL DO IT !!

We started together and we will end together

Boring Sial !!!

haiyo !!!...nothing to do..college studys also nvr start
just sit at the pc..listening to music, chating and thinking
so i decided to write on my blog..hahah (that sounds gay)

lets recap on today...
went to col..had finite maths..it sounds nice..and the teacher also is fresh =)
after had lab..teacher is good but very "garang" wan..haiyo
after that had english with Miss Annie..shes has the same name as my mother..lol
owh ya..she made me and Aaron class rep..we will prove her wrong =P

ok that what happend in college..now lets see..what to talk about..i think, wait (still thinking), ahhhhhhh...ermmmm...
ok la..ill write a poem..hahah
long time dint do this crap
well..lets go

I'm like this feeling i get inside of me
happiness i get when it is there
alot of things can be the factor
to tell u?, i will nvr do, you just have to figure it out ur self
enough to keep you guessing what it is
the answer i think u will nvr find
how on earth to keep this temptation that i want so much
it makes me weak and soft
stealing my heart, that is a crime u know? =)
full with passion and lust
every time i want more
electricity goes in my body when i get this feeling
like a million needles in my body when im with that "somebody"
i like this feeling at times, but it always ends in failure !!
nobody can take ur place in my heart
going on and on until my life ends

Day 1 of being Help-ed

yea..it was the 1st day =)
ill skip all the crap and start at what happend there
when i reached there, the 1st face i saw was uncle Joshua..hahah
registered
and waited in the theater room
its was super boring to the max..hahah
but after that i meet 3 new friends Aaron, Cheryl and Pohlyn
nice people to be with and fun =)
sorry dint have any pic..my camera is dead
after that we went to eat
owh ya..u can find anything to eat at HELP
i mean anything
u name it
Subway, MCD, pizza hut, etc etc

after that went back to heard more ppl talking
then went and register our subs..i and Cheryl are taking all the same classes and Aaron and Pohlyn are taking the same..but we 4 still meet at some classes..i mean most of them =)
then waited for dad..
btw..its 15mins from my house to HELP..that is if i have a Car..hope i get 1 soon =P
went home, visited kel..talked about Sunway and HELP
came home..sleep
wake up, bath ,eat, online
see TV
hahah
boring huh?

and tomorrow the real studying starts i think..hahah..i think im having math tom

till my next post
SicX out

p.s HELP pc's are very very very slow..its better to have a note book