Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Its a new year

I dint do anything big this new year..well, it never has been big
the house party that i planed got canceled, booked it to late (3 days before new year)..hahah
today, i just went for dinner with parents
after that at 12.00am
went WCG with Daniel..lol
what a way to spend the new year, by playing dota
Friends wanted me to go to the Curve
but i dint want, it will be packed and i dont have to cash

Now, i will tell u guys my new years resolutions

1. Be a better person and a better friend
2. Be a better dancer
3. Study hard at college, dont repeat what i did for SPM !!!
4. Go places with my dance crew
5. Lose weight =)..hahah
6. be a better Dota player..lol
7. Be able to do Baby mills and improve my style in bboying
8. Stay fresh ^^V..im so lame
9. be a better son to my parents
10. Be able to bake my grandmothers fruit cake =)..i so want to learn this,keep the family tradition alive

well..i think thats about all
i just pray i can follow my list and dont screw up my life

thats all for now
SicX out

Friday, December 26, 2008

Silence

Yes, i cant talk
i can talk, but i sound like a Frog
when i talk, i feel like i have a 1000 needles is in my body
this feeling really sucks

all this started to happen few days ago
i started coughing like crazy
i felt very sleepy
than on Christmas night it started to happen
i felt like i am going to lose my voice
and the next day, it was true
i could not talk !!
damn !!
i hope that i get back my voice soon
i dont want to sound like this !!
like SOHAI !! hahah
now im in Ipoh
going for prayers today night *sigh* boring !!!
i am going to read something a loud
but my voice is gone, and my grand father still wants me to read
like WTF !!!
my voice is gone..how am i going to read??
but i dont give a fuck...im not going to read...at all !!.
never ever

till my next post
SicX out

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Not so merry 'O' Christmas

Sorry dint updated this few days...been in my grandma house for xmas..the net there was down


Christmas this year is not like last year or the years b4...i really dont know why
last time when i was a small kid
i could not wait for Christmas...trying to stay up late and catch santa in the act =)
wishing i get the presents i asked for
eat my grandma's cookies
singing Christmas songs
hahah..that was the good days

now days is just plain boring..
i just feel like i grown older and want something more than material needs =)
hahahah..i need my needs
i dont need presents and shit..i want somebody to share xmas with
some1 to put the Christmas tree with
somebody to drink hot coco with on Christmas eve
well..i just think i got to wait...my dreams can wait..hahah

owh ya...i lost my voice..
seriously...i like lost it
not that bad..i can still talk
but when i talk..it sounds funny..hahah
when i sing..it sounds more funny =P
hope i get better soon

i will be going to Ipoh tomorrow evening..ill try to update...take care !!!
AND HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Fresh stuff happened today

what happened today..lets see
owh ya..i am now a HELP student..hahah..and this time its official =) will be starting on 5jan..wish me luck !!this was in the morning..
after that just sitting at home asking people to go out with and playing DOTa...
i wanted to go to pavilion to buy the puma Yo! MTV Rap shoe...
called few people..all said busy,dont wan to come, to far and lazy...hahah
after that call my dance crew member Wingz
..he said sure but we had to go at night
went there around 7+...straight went to puma...i saw my dream shoe..but it was to expensive..
i was thinking they had 50% discount on all shoes...but to bad..its only on some shoes =(

well...after that we went to Converse, Nike and Adidas..
we saw a nice shoe at Nike..we wanted a high cut shoe
we set out target already..hahah
we went JCO !!..yummy (long time dint eat)
after our dinner..we bought the shoe...and guess what..we both bought the same shoe!!!
and the best part is..that there was only 2 PAIRS left !!!
hahaha

it was a Nike DUNK HIGH CUT PREMIUM [limited Edition] ..its rm400
its orange..so now i have 2 orange shoes..lol..its ok, 1 shoe is low cut and 1 shoe is high cut..hahah



NOW I HAVE 14 PAIRS OF SHOES..and its still growing =)


Saturday, December 20, 2008

Rock The World 8

ok..b4 u read this..u must know the meaning of the word Mosh and Mosh pit
MOSH - kick people, hit people, jump on people, dance, release ur anger on people
MOSH PIT - A place where u Mosh


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ok..i had only 3 hours of sleep..cause of Titanic
ill skip all the stupid parts...hahah
at 12 left the house...me, darma and Dave went Stadium Merdeka...
wait..its not in Stadium Merdeka..it was in Secret Garden..hahah..what a name
b4 that..i meet up with Ros aka Ninja Turtle...THIS IS THE 1ST TIME WE SAW EACH OTHER..
hahah...but it was good la...we like straight talked..no diam diam..lol

1st few band were ok..1 college band was sick..they sound like SLIPKNOT
after that i and Ros went outside to have a Chat...i told her a Story of my life..hahah..(Ros- shhhhh)
went in..meet up with the guys..it was kinda boring
but when the sun went down..the rain was pouring..that i when the fun started

OAG !!!!!!!!!!!
yea...we fucking Mosh like shit...
it was cool...i was so stressed up with my life..i just jumped in a mosh pit and
start kicking people..it was fun..hahah

After OAG..some other band...and than i had to send Ros to the monorail
Bittersweet was playing at that time..its ok..im not a fan of them
after that..went back..and just on time..ESTRANGED was on !!!!!!!
i sang my heart out..i love their songs ITU KAMU AND YANG PERNAH
after Estranged played...i Found my Kale's !! =)

the most funny thing is that..my group is the only group of Indians there..all the rest are Malays..and no Chinese..but i dont care...WE LIVE IN PEACE !!!


when all my friends came + my bro....that is when the REAL FUCKING shit MOSH PIT starts...
it was fucking crazy..u should be there..i was not the Hip hop/Bboy SicX...i was the Fucking Rocker SicX...and i loved it =)

KOFFIN KANCER was playing !!!!!!!!..like wtf..the best band to mosh...so, i entered a most pit...1 person kicked my HEAD..its all good....and Kelvin also mosh!!..hahah..yea man, he got balls, a thin person moshing..thats sick...its all about having fun.hahah..this was the time for me to release tension and have fun...but i had like to BABY SIT a few ppl..(personal problem)..its like..i don't want anything bad to happen to my frens and my bro...but i still MOSHED
after all the fun..i found Dave that was missing for along time..he came back with a battle wound..blood on his face and blood on his shirt...hahah...he had some problem with 1 dude..but its all good now...

after that..i wanted to go home..cause im dead tired..
im tension FREE !!!

its good to go for events like this
and im planing to go Next year...anybody with me?


PICTURES !!





Friday, December 19, 2008

Its a lie

yes..i said it..its a lie..everything i did is a lie..yes..a fucking lie
for the these pass few months..i have been living a lie..thinking that i can get whatever i want
well, things are not sweet every time
few days ago..i was talking with a good fren of mine...
he is elder to me..and i think that its good to talk to elder people
i think this is because that you can learn more from them.
they have lived longer than us and had gone through more things than us

while talking to my fren..i understand that things dont always go ur way
so, dont expect much, dont hope, just let it be, life is about taking chances
forget people that hurt u in life!!! , they just need u when they really want something
throw away friends that hurt your feeling
YOU DONT NEED THEM !!

its 6.20am..yes..its that early
i was seeing Titanic..hahaha..yes, that movie
186minutes of melo-ness..hahah
while seeing the movie
i cant picture my self not as Leonardo!!! , but i picture my self as the BAD GUY... =(
i dont know why..if u still remember the movie..my life is like him, not everything..but me and him, we are under going to same problem =)..almost they same..hahah..u get to picture..

THE STORY GOES LIKE THIS, SIMPLE AND SHORT =)
He loves the girl
Girl hates him
Girl runs away with hot guy
-The End, girl enjoys her life, the bad guy will hate his life-



*SIGH*

2more ...wait..today...ill be going to Rock The World..hahah..i got like only 3 more hours to sleep..so wish me luck =)..ill enjoy my self to the MAX and MOSH like crazy !!..and try to let go of my melo-ness...ahahah

i hope that guy that gave me advice is reading my blog..i thank him so very much..hahah..we shall talk again soon

till then..SicX out

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Great lines

This are the songs that make me feel..hahah..hope u guys enjoy this songs..=)


Baby I'm hot just like an oven

I need some lovin'
And baby, I can't hold it much longer
It's getting stronger and stronger
And when I get that feeling
I want Sexual Healing
Sexual Healing, oh baby
Makes me feel so fine

Sexual Healing - Marvin Gaye

It's like the hardest thing for me to say,
without crackin a smile,
it's somethin that we both really feel inside,
but never talked about,
they call it love oh yes they do,
a dangerous thing when you're part of the game,
so girl I feel you when you get emotional,
and don't wanna let me go,
ha but it's somethin I gotta tell ya

Chris Brown - Gonna be my girl

Today in a breeze I sensed your perfume
But you were nowhere near.
And in reverie,
I felt you holding me.
And even in my dreams I shake from the fear
Of truth being swept away
By the rhythm of the waves I whisper in your ears.

Daphne Loves Dreby - Pollen and Salt

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

K-Ci and Jojo - All my life

I was made for lovin you baby
You were made for lovin me
And I cant get enough of you baby
Can you get enough of me

Kiss - I was made for loving you


Hey pretty baby with the
High heels on
You give me fever
Like Ive never, ever known
Youre just a product of
Loveliness
I like the groove of
Your walk,
Your talk, your dress
I feel your fever
From miles around
Ill pick you up in my car and well paint the town
Just kiss me baby
And tell me twice
That youre the one for me

MJ - The way u make me feel

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

A mind opener

today
nth much happen..just sit in the house, stone, use the PC, talking to Faustina and lara
after doing all my stuff
time to go to the studio !!
when i reach the studio..i cant belive my eyes
Jacob( my dance teacher)..was wearing the same pants, shoe and cap as me
we were wearing Dickie's red shorts, echo park red cap and red converse
so now u guys know where i get my style from..hahah =)
Great minds think alike
some of my frens..i mean alot of my frens do not like my style..i think its because its not normal
last time i used to be like everybody else, wear a shirt, blue jeans, white shoes, plain shoes
but after i put my foot in Freedom dance Studio..it changed
and i like it!! ...NOW I HAVE 14 PAIRS OF SHOES( still growing)..and its all full with colour!!
i wore a shirt to MOS, this is just because it will make me look older and blend in the club
cause im underage..hahah
BTW, my teachers crew dances in MOS on Wednesdays and Saturdays...thats so cool!!!
when im with my frens..they hate my shoes..but when im in Freedom..they think my shoes are fresh..hahaha

so from now, ill be my self..my fresh self..hahah..i dont care if u like it or not..its just me..deal with it =)

MY STYLE, MY FLAVOR - BBOY BORN


SicX(no official crew yet) and Jacob(Giller Battle Crew) - Great minds think alike

Sunday, December 14, 2008

im an owl...meow meow meow (poem)

i said meow meow meow because i dont know what owls say..hahah

its 7.10am and i am still not sleepy..
like wtf man..why the hell i cant sleep..i really dont know why..
when i try to sleep..my stupid melo brain keeps thinking about stuff
i think i think to much..hahah
i must know when to stop thinking
looks like i cant sleep..rite?
so now..im going to write a poem =)
im just going to write whatever comes out my little brain of mine.hahah
so, GET READY

BTW..THIS POEM IS NOT ABOUT ME!!..THIS IS MY STYLE OF WRITING..SO DONT GO THINKING WRONG STUFF ABOUT ME....I JUST LIKE WRITING POEMS..HAHAH..IT MIGHT BE GAY AND ALL..BUT EVEN WILLIAM SHACKSPEAR DID IT..HOPE 1 DAY I CAN BE AS GOOD AS HIM..HAHAH..CHEERS TO THAT..btw, in all my poems i did so far..there is a code in it..i think..that's y it means so much..that is what that makes it fresh =)

I was left in this black hole by the person i cared for
And i do get this often, yes i do
Maybe u think im gone melodramatic?
Melodramatic us say?..maybe it is true
It is like, it just only happened, but it ended so fast
Songs of sorrow i hear to heal my wounds
Sing it on a dark day i will
Inspired by the one true love i had
Never to say, but to do i will
Go away i shall to a far place
Along with the sorrows that u gave me
Go go go...go far away..that is what she said to me
I left her with a smile on my face but a scare in my heart
Rum i drank to take away my guilt
Lonely i shall stay the rest of my life

hope u guys like it..give ur opinion..how does it sounds like?

i think i shall go for a swim now..hahah

for now, im done
-SicX-


Saturday, December 13, 2008

Its fun being emo sometimes =)

do u know why its fun to be emo?
its because, for me that is, it makes me think
its like, ur mind goes free..u will think about the past and the future..what u did and what are u going to do
y im i so emo now?..hahah..emo..that word is so normal..i think ill use melodramatic =)
yes, im MELODRAMATIC !!!
i dont know why im like this
wait..i think i do
but i dont know if i should tell u ppl..hahaha
wait..i think i should
ok..but i will tell u guys is code..hahah..cause some ppl are going to read it that might get effected by it..hahah

i think i am missing something that i lost long time ago..few weeks ago..somebody reminded me about that..and it felt good..hahah..
I really dont know wtf im talking about..but that is just me..a fresh melodramatic guy

i think most people get melodramatic it is because they think life is not fair to them..i know alot of people like this..this includes me..hurmm..well, i got to admit it someday
U see now..u say life is unfair to u? u dont get what u want?
at my melodramatic stage..i was thinking..what about kids that have no parents, no food, no place to live, no body to love..u think that their life is fair??..tell me that..i think our life is much better than them..so we cant say that our life sucks
i think..we people with a family should be happy cause we have people to look after us, care for us, to pick us up when we are down
so, i think we should be happy with our life and dont go around saying life sucks..

OMG kel..u gave me that song..now u make me more melodramatic..screw u !!!!!!!!!

being melodramatic is good sometimes..its fun but sometimes u just want to sit down think..it is good to think..open up..cause who knows, u might find something new in ur life =)

Friday, December 12, 2008

F.R.E.S.H.F.U.N

I fucking dint sleep for 40 hours !!!!!!! like wtf
this is what i did for that 40 hours

Lets see
i woke up at 5pm on Thursday..i was just sitting in my room stoning like shit
my cous came back and said he and Greg are going to MOS..my dad was in johor and mom slept early..i was like, what the hell..IM GOING TO MOS..
Dave and Greg went in early cause they wanted to go in for free..haahha..and the are pass the legal age...damm those ppl..dont worry..1 more year for me =)
owh ya..i saw Kavi and her frens there..i dint know they were coming..then Sundeep, Shaun and KY came..btw..we are all underage..
lucky we had our HK boy Shaun there to help us out =) ..thx Shaun !!
he know ppl that know ppl that knows somebody..hahah
ill skip all the crap..in the end ..we all got in
when i enter the MOS dance floor
i was like WTF !!!!!!!! ...it is so freaking fresh sial...hahah
i think we entered MOS around 12..had to wait for 2 hours..*sigh*
in MOS i danced like krazy..lol
i had a great time !!!
seriously...got to meet new people..bottom line,it was fun
i spent around rm100...we entered for free..but the drinks are fucking expensive..c'mon 23 bucks for 1 shot..i was like dammm..but its all good
the fucked up part is that the stop the music at 3am SHARP !!!
after that we went to the mamak..cause kavi wanted to get air limau..hahah..
after mamak we went KFC..hahah..well, we are Malaysians..what do u think =)
its was 5.30am..i was like WTF..my mom is going to wake up soon and i told her im at the movies..(what movie finishes at 5am..hahah)..
8 ppl had to go in a Satria..we were going to my house..cause the girl had no where else to go..we waited at the pool for awhile..guard chased us away..cause the say ppl are complaning..hahaha..YEA RITE LIKE WE ARE GOING TO BELIVE THAT
went to my house..saw tv for awhile then i and greg walked to girl to get a cab

after that..i dint want to sleep..cause..i know, if i sleep, i will wake up damm late..i mean..very late..after that is all boring stuff nth much..night time i and kel when to genting klang to eat and shisak..Genting Klang has the cheapest and best shisak around..few hours ago i and kel were seeing max payne..its was..erm..its was BORING..hahah..after that stupid movie..we saw ALI G IN DA HOUSE...this movie was fucking fresh..hahah..u should see it..its funny!!..

now im writing my blog..cause long time dint update..and Mr.Kel is playing my PSP (btw, he is bored cause his GF is in HK..kesian him =P)..i think they both are meant for each other..i hope they last a long time..RESPECT..the fight a lot ..but in the end..the get back together..i like him for that..it takes a man to do that...respect..hahah..btw, she is not bad ..lol..props to my main man.(sry for all the hip hop slang..just saw ali g..still in the mood)

owh ya..My cous and gred went to MOS today..fuck them..2 days in MOS..hahaha..lucky them..i just called them and they said they are high so they ask me to call back soon..how long do u want me to wait?..

OMG...its 5.50am..and i am still not sleepy..kel is going to go back soon..i think we can be owls..hhahah..fresh owls..owh ya, more ppl are using the fresh word now..hahaha..im so lame

ok then..this is what i did for 40 hours..a lot of thing huh..
the conclusion is, if u dont sleep for 40hours..u can do alot more things than sleeping for 8 hours a day, the hypothesis is accepted =)

btw..kel and i said..we sleep when the suns come up and wake up when the sun goes down

till my next post..sicx out
ps. pls mind my grammer.i dint sleep for 40 hours..dude!!..what do u think..lazy want to read back..i just wrote what was on my fresh mind

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Hahahah..im so lame

hahaha..i was just reading my OLD blog..and i feel i was so damm fucking lame..haizz..im happy i did a new 1

erm..what to talk about..lets see..
ok..i know!!..im so damm fucking bored..even it is after SPM..live WTF...hahah..but for the pass few days..i have been kinda busy, wait...VERY busy..had been going to the studio almost every day..its nice..feeling the life of a dancer..dancing everyday ...but im still no PRO yet...i will try my very best..never to give up =)

its 2.30 and im not sleepy..now days im sleeping at 4am and waking up at 3pm..hahah..im a bat!!
woot woot
what should i do now..i think ill go and see a Movie..what movie..maybe harry potter..long time dint see...why the hell im i telling u all this...u dont give a shit rite?...yes..i know what u are thinking about..because im Dr.Know...hahah

btw..next Tuesday is Our big day (our meaning the crew)..we must dance on stage with REIZO ZEN..hahah..im so lucky..he is a freaking good dancer..i hope 1 day i can be like him...1 DAY (pause and dreams)

lets recap on pass things..
so far nobody special..thats normal for me
still dint get my lips pierced (maybe next year)
owh ya...im still ur simple guy next door..hahahahah
i like the simple guy next door word..its so..like..erm..how do i put it..its just plain..haiyo..u get the point

BAD news !!!
my cous just told me im not simple guy next door material...FUCK !!!...hahaha

Sometimes also i get left out in the studio..hahah..i think it is because i dont speak chinese..haha..im like the only Indian there..hahah..but i still like it there..i like the people there.. p.s Jacob sometimes can be gay..hahahah..but still super funny (dont tell anybody)

ok la..mau gerak..gua nak pegi tengok "harry potter"...see u guys later...stay fresh sial !!!

Monday, December 1, 2008

Empty

Empty
what is empty to do with this
empty is the thing in everything
everything is empty
even in a rock..empty is there
that rock u use the throw at ur love 1..yes that rock
the rock is a symbol or the burden that u carry
to make some happy
to do the impossible
wait..im talking crap
yes crap i said
the crap is also known as shit
shit this life
im shitting it because it is lifeless
lifeless is fact that it has no life in life
yes i said it..UR LIFE IS A LIE
what is the reason u live for..
wait..u dont know..u know why..because its a lie
this is just a way for the man to get control
POWER TO THE PEOPLE
back to the topic
EMPTY
to be or not to be is the key to life
life is a black abysses
black like a black hole that never ends
its like the shit hole u see every morning
it never ends!!!
laugh at me?..yes..that is what u are doing
i know...i know everything..thats why they call me Dr.Know
knowing the existence of life and all around it
i will be the Nobel price and be Nobel someday
Nobel enough to kill a cat
"meow meow meow"..that what the cat said to me
i said to him "Fuck you..no body meows at me..Dr.know"
and i kicked the cat and i felt like a MAN
yes...IM A MAN
cause u dont see a lot of people kicking a cat
MEOW MEOW MEOW
thats all it can say
hahahah..i feel like i rule the world
wait..i do rule the world
yes..im Zeus
kings of kings...no body dares to challenge me
well..looks like im king now..so u all have to OBEY me...
yes..i said it OBEY..
i want OBEYness
to be or not to be..
only i can say that
now..for my last act in life.
ill leave this life..to get a better life of lifeless..
MEOW (stabs his self)