CHANGE OF BLOG !!!!!

Hello all my readers

im no more using blogspot, i got an upgrade =)

i have my very own website =) check it out

http://whynotsicx.com/

New look

I think its about time that my blog needed a new look

made it all black =), cause im black, lol

enjoy reading =)

Fairytale =)

I forgot how long was it
since I last heard you telling me your favorite story, that fairy tale
I have been thinking for a very long time, I’m beginning to feel paranoid
Did I make any mistakes again?

You told me with the tears in your eyes, that fairy tales are all lies
It’s impossible for me to be your prince charming
maybe you will not understand
until the moment comes when you say you love me
the stars in my sky, are beginning to shine and shimmer
I’m willing to be, in the fairytale with you
the angel you love
open my arms wide, let it become wings to protect you
You have to believe
believe that we will be like the fairytale
with happiness and joy as the ending
everything is our beautiful ending…
can i be your prince charming?

A Grilled Chicken with an Asian Flavor

rToday i was kinda bored, so i decided to cook =) i cooked Oriental Barbecued Chicken
it was simple to make, not that hard
just had to marinade the chicken with soy sauce, honey dark Sesame Oil, ginger and garlic for about 4 hours
after that just grilled it
it turned out alright, the smell was awesome !!!
even my dad said that it was nice =P, lol
but it was a bit salty, should lay off the soy sauce, we learn from our mistakes =)

WITH THE GRAVY

THE CHICKEN !!! =)

Normal

Looks like i dint touch this blog for a long time, and now its time for an update
looks like most ppl say my poems are very emo and they dont like it, so for the time being, im going to be a normal blogger and blog about their life and events that seem important to them

Ermmmmm
Owh ya, i start working out recently, some of you might be laughing, specially gopal !!
but laugh all u want, i dont give a fuck about what u think, lol
The reason that made me start working out is because "somebody" gave me the motivation that i needed =)
Thank you *******

My daily routine is, its kinda boring, wake up at 12pm, eat, exercise,bath, sleep, exersice, bath, eat, online, sleep
i know im a pig, hahahaha
going to change it soon =)

Thanks to my cousin that will be down here for about a month, im going to start training with him =)

My goal is to get a killer body before next year !!!

Btw, u guys should check out P90X
its a killer homework out, do it for 90 days, and u will get a what u worked for
it comes with a routine to follow and a diet to follow, ill update a post about p90x when i start it =)

wish me luck

p/s... thank you again to that person that gave me the motivation !!!!!!!!! =)

I wish that you can

I wish that you can lend me your ear when i need somebody to talk to
I wish that you will come to me and ask me if everything is alright
I wish that you will at least ask me how was my day
I wish that you would call me, wanting to know what am i doing
I wish that you can care for me as i care for you
I wish that you will close your eyes and say love is blind, because it really is
I wish that you wont ignore me when i need you the most
I wish that you can be my light in the dark
I wish that you will carry me up when i fall
I wish that you can tell me all your deepest secrets
I wish that you can take me to a deeper conversation
I wish that you smile at me every time we meet
I wish that you come to me first if you have a problem
I wish that you like me as how i like you
I wish that you find happiness in your life
I wish that you live forever till worlds end
I wish that you can give me a present, even though its not a special day
I wish that you would text me when you are bored
I wish that you would take the effort to understand me better, like how i do to you
I wish that you will one day hold my hand, and call me your guy

you can keep on wishing, but it aint coming true, no matter how hard you try, it will never come true, you can never force somebody to love you or like you, it all depends on both individuals, no matter how much love and affection you show somebody else and you have to get back the same thing, the person might give you back what you gave, or that person might just....well, u know where it ends =).

p/s, Before you fall, remember to think before you fall, you never know what awaits you at the end. It might be good or evil. Its all a matter of opinion, its ur wish, i would say, follow your heart, but......are you me???

Round Round Round

I saw this girl
my world turned
round round just round my head
beautiful girl
nothing else to see
just you and me girl, can we be girl
sitting down, holding hands
awww, thats sweet girl, love your smile
baby girl u look fine
ill cross the finish line to be ur man
nobody else can get in my way
you and me girl, thats were we at
haha, if only that could happen

girl you are my world
you are my sun
you are my moon
just seeing you makes me go round round round
just round round round
just round round round
never ending round round round

Hey girl lets make this short and sweet
these few lines is going to about you, everything you
you light up everything when its dark
your touch is the greatest cure there is
lets get this down rite now
will you spend that night with me
the night that all have been waiting for
can i be the one that you pick girl
will you pick me? owh pls girl, thats all im asking for
i might not be the person for you
i might not be ur prince charming
i might not be the brightest of the bunch
so what do u say girl? am i the one?

girl you are my life
you are my soul
you are my doll
just seeing you makes me go round round round
just round round round
just round round round
never ending round round round

haha, thats all i got to say
there isnt anymore
this sound a little dum
cause im a bum
and i was bored
good nite people
sweet dreams
remember girl, think about it =)

-SicX™-

Bored =)

Why oh why cant i be all so perfect?
Why oh why do i have to have some wrong in me?
why oh why do i have to treat people so good, when i get nth in return?
I keep asking my self why oh why
Trash trash trash
Being used when people need me, as a substitute
"can u come with me bla bla bla bla bla, i got no body to go with"
i do as people want, hoping that they will at least give some back
why oh why do i have to be a naive
why oh why dont i open my eyes
why oh why do i try so hard
the pain is undescrible, it like a thousand needles poking the heart
i like the old days, the old days were fun
it was just me and the blank space
my mind and heart becoming one
dammm, what would i give to get back those old days =)
dammm, if only =)

The One

Is there such thing as the One
Will we be able to solve the sum?
Nobody is perfect, u can never find the perfect one
If everybody is perfect, wont the world be not fun?
You just have to work on that person
Cause no body is perfect
If we wait and wait for the One
we will end up old and numb
because the one dint come
Give the person a chance, prove to be the best that person will
everybody has their pros and cons
Opposites attract i say?
we dont know, we will never know
because life has its ups and downs
Surprising us every time
We will never know what will happen next
wait and dont rush
fall into the hole with to much lust
never to come out from that crunch
1 word, 1 day, 1 moment, 1 step
Thank you for giving me the best day of my life =)

Raindow !!! wheeeeeee~~ =)

Slow is everything i see in now
This feeling, with out drinking the sin water
Its like freedom, no worry's
everything sweet, nothing bitter
We Must not worry about a thing
Everything is good, and good it will be
Lights i see off and on, they smile at me =)
They saw, u will do fine, just be happy, and jump
Freaked out i was by this lights, i was like
Waaaaazzzzz super cool talking lights
you look hot i said, hot like the sun
Are u the sun i asked the bright light
No, im just in ur happy free mind =)
Head all light and woozy from the effect of 3 !!!!
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~~~~~~~~~~~~
saying, this is my massage to you , ohh ohh ohohoho
Monkey Man, woot woot
Run run run like the fat wind go gust you are
Sing like the fat lady on Oprah
Bed, looks so nice, i might just jump on you and like stone
Dance on u will if i have to, because i love to dance
TekkKKTOTOTOTOOTOT ~~~~~
Robot, robot from the skys, flying in to my head
i see them, jumping up and down like the happy like big bundle of joy the are for the rest of life
Woman no, we wont cry
cause we are gay gay gay gay
gay not homo gay, but happy gay
Lesbo happy !! (random moment)
i remember when we use to talk long long hours
i know it was pointless, never the less, i have smile on my face =))))
ok, now is time to get out of happy time, and sleep
nitey nite, good nite, i love u bitch !!!, i love you JPS ( its a guy thing )

What??

when i told you that, my life went down the drain
every time i think about it, it rains
needles poking my body brings pain
ever step up make, kills me

getting my life back together
its not easy, it is not, trust me
should i or should i not
you made me distance my self from society
people noticed my weakness
rejected by society, a social reject
they are not rejecting me, its my self that is rejecting society
they are trying to help, but im not giving them a chance
but if i tell, they will call me a weak link
i dont want to burden ppl with my problems
half of them wont fucking care
i dont blame them, its my life, not theirs
why should they care, they have their own problems to handle
im just one of ur toys, u play with me when u need me
now i know how the toys of Toy Story feels like
used like a used condom
should i or should i not?
I know this affection may be temporary
for night-like behavior, it is necessary
But for tonight, im not doing it right
But you got my number if you like it or not
delete if u may, i dont care
for now, byebye
goodbye my friend
you have "been" the ONE for me
let me rephrase that "been"

How to roll your eyes

This is a convo between be and Ros, now i know how to roll my eyes !!
hahahahah

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
everydoes

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
muahahahahahahah

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
hahah very funny

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
*rolls eyes* o.0

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
ur eyes can roll?

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
walau

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
how u do it?

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
lesson no 1

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
look up

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
lesson no 2

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
move your eyeballs 45 degrees either to the right or left

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
than?

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
lesson no 3

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
move your eyeballs 90 degress to the direction you made in lesson 2

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
lesson no 4.

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
close your eyes

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
than?

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
note that you should look annoyed while doing this

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
and while rolling your eyes it has to be in one smooth flow

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
good luck

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
lol

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
says the sifu

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
sakit la

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
GAMBATEH

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
keep trying and you shall succeed

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
i will train hard, and 1 day, we will have a rolling eye battle, winner takes all

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
winner ends up with an eye injury

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
so its a dangerous sport?

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
highly dangerous

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
always take safety measures

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
such as ice bags on the ready

INKUZ HARIHAZ says:
and helmets just in case the sports men and women terpening after rolling their eyes byk2

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
hahaha

Whatever You Want to Call me says:
so the conclusion, eye rolling is a extream sport

P/S, Dont blame me if u try this and kill urself

If your fucking 555 than im fucking 666

you like to love, i like to hate
you like to laugh, i hate to laugh
you smile, i stare
you think your a 555, im a 666
you think you hot, im fucking ugly
you think your all that, i know that ur all that
i love you, u hate me
i want to be, u reject everything
I cry, u laugh at me pointing fingers
saying " look at the guy, he is a fucking loser, he thinks that we can be"
fuck that, fuck you, fuck everybody, fuck the world
i know im not Mr.Big or ur Mr. Right
i know i cant be the one
i know that i will never be any body's 1
useless i am to this world
because i called it stupid and a wanted to fuck it
I talk to much
I think to much
I hope to much
I dont everything to much
I fucking Hate it
Why be alone baby, when we can be together, i say that in my dreams
Even my dreams laugh at me, saying, LOSER !!!!!
deep inside i hope u feel it to, what i feel, but, i hope
and normally, what i hope for, never comes true
So, so, so, so, it goes on, and on ,and on, till the end of time

-FiN-

The Truth

my day is made when i lay my eyes on you
even if you dont care, i do still
far before this day, everything was fine
knowing that you forgotten me and me the same
but, every time we meet, my feelings build
calling you names, it wont help
i was plain dum and stupid, thats the truth
what people say is the truth, and the truth hurts
dont listen to the heart, always ends in pain
dont listen to people, some just bring you down
dont listen to me or others?, than to whom?
this is an answer that ill never find out
to be the old or new, thats the question
i really dont know, i really dont care
never chase, you will lose the race
never never, dont dont, i can say
now now, do do, i cant say
into this black abysses, i fall now and than
hoping for you to bring me out, that day never comes
somebody i need who thinks the same way, a friend
somebody i need when im down, a friend
i just need one that understand
now, this is the truth

Shawty whats ur name?

Sad to say im only in town for the night to see you
I got like eight hours left before my ride arrives
Im trying to stay respectful n polite to ya
you can tell me go to hell if you like.
now I ain't one of them people, getting mad cuz you ain't intrested
now dont get me wrong, im going to look when you pass,
but I ain't the one to pull on you arm or stop you
I ain't attackin unless I get a signal first,
I ain't the one thats gonna play for fun..
before is over you gonna say,
Fuck you
believe it...

I like to see you an independent girl
I like that you gotcha your life and your mind straight
but you say u gotta lame ass person.. in your life,
and he cant get the mental n physical part right,
you playin wit his mind but his mind wont bite
they dont talk shit n dont hit it how you like,
I just want the first right or refusal,
when that person wana catch a movie
you just say your busy
boo boo boo,
you said he is not the one,
but mama shit is like for real,
but that thrust stays harder than a brick
but all you need is to live your life
i respect that and let it be,
time is something to be valued
my time is moving fast, so thats why i asked you,
Shawty whats ur name?

Im not going to waste these words about a girl

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

I TOLD YOU IM NOT GONIG TO WASTE THESE WORDS ABOUT A GIRL, ITS ABOUT SQUARE "FUCKING" ROOTS

just felt like doing it

Every time when we are together, i feel safe
Every time i look at you, i so want to share my life with you
Every time i talk to you, i know that you understand
But every time, i know that we can never be
You, dont feel safe with me
You, dont want to share your life with me
You, think i dont understand you
But how will i know?, im just guessing i guess
Every time you look at me, you just see me as a friend
You tell ur friends, im just a friend
I try to forget about you, but its hard
being next to you, is like being beside an angel
how can u resist an angel?

Your eye, mesmerize me, seeing stars on earth
Your smile, brings a smile on my face, even on the darkest days
Your touch, it can bring life
Your presence, is like the sun, a shining ray that goes a million miles

Dreams of u i have, dreams of us being together, having the time of our life
It felt so real, i never want to wake up for it
if only dreams came true
i will have this face the whole time =)

When you say hello to me, inside im screaming i love you
when u tell me something about ur self, i feel special
happy because u told me something about ur self
thinking to my self, yes i know you better
but its all put to waste, cause it will never happen between us
I'm sittin' here all by myself
Just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
Just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
To leave the rest of the world behind
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
That you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
And the more I want you here with me
I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

all that is said, is said
there is nothing else to be said
i just hope
i just pray
i just wish
that you feel the same way too

Tik Tok, Tik Tok

Times passes by, stop and stare i did
try ed i "did", but all was put to waste
all the praying, all the sweat was for nothing
all the smiles, all the laughs was for nothing
everything i did was for nothing
Thinking that, i will get something in return
nothing came
Tik Tok, Tik Tok
nothing came
Just run back to corner that we met i will
hoping, u notice that im missing from ur life
Maybe, just maybe u might come back to the place that we meet
im not moving, until you do
people talk about me, the guy that is waiting at that corner
maybe ill get famous, because im the guy that cant be move
but i dont care, i just want you to come back to the place that we meet
Tik Tok, Tik Tok
Times passes by, stop and stare i will

Going loco

Wheeeeee =)

SicX : Hello dick head
Vinod : yes, what do you want?
SicX : ur a fucking fag =P
Vinod : yea i know
SicX : erm...want to know why
Vinod : yea..why?
S :because you dont have the "stuff" that people have
V : yea, i know, i blame the place that i came from
S : you will just never get it
V : yea, i know
S : you think you know everything???
V : yea, i know
S : Why dont you just stop, u know you cant do it
V : im trying, but i cant, its just me, stupid old me
S : i really dont know what to say, you try so hard, but it gets u no where, i think u want to much
V : yea, i think ur right for once
S : Im always right, im fresh
V : what should i do??
S : 2 things u can do, confront or just hide in ur fucking shell
V : the shell that i fuck with???
S : =_=''', ur just stupid
V : hahahahah, i know
S : ermm...what should we do now??
V : i dont know, im bored...
S : you are always, you fag
V : errmmmm... waaaazzz aaaaaa ~~~~
S : shut the fuck up, im trying to think
V : hahahahahahahah

it just ends here, after this, it leads to violants, somebody died, and you have to find out who
thank you..lol

March 26, latin america night

waazzz aaaa !!!
sry for the long blank stage in my blog, just dint had anything to write about

thurday, HELP rush team did a event at Supperclub, yes, that club that i got waisted , for forgetting her...hahahah
overall it was fun =)
my fun start after the event..lol
started out with a drink from the old and trusty KK mark !!!! (U know la what u can get there ^^)
after that a dance battle with some taylor people
danced danced and danced
after that some problems happened

i and aaron had a talk
and the chinese man said, pick 1 and only 1
i was to tipsy to give him a good answer, so i told him, ill tell him tom
and i just notice, i cant be my cous =(
I DONT HAVE THE HEART TO DO WHAT HE DOES
well, lets just see what happens
it might turn out good, or might turn out bad, who knows
just go with the flow
And bros b4 hoes
"dude", its urs, i dont wan to get in ur way, it is all urs, it was just a lust anyway, i think
i really dont know what i talking about, i think it was the "Thai Song", hahahahah
it was fucking strong wei

p/s KK mark rocks !!!!!!!!!!

Basshunter

Angel In The Night

You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
But that is not enough, will I ever be by your side

Your hair is dancing in the wind
Your eyes are burning up my skin
And I'm so happy when I see, that you are smiling back at me

You're leaving burnmarks on the ground
Thank you God for what I've found
I don't know how, I don't know why
But you're my angel in the night

You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
Let me hold you now, just like days before you start to cry
You are my light in the dark
You are the beating in my heart
But that is not enough, will I ever be by your side

I try my best to satisfy, but all you do is wave me goodbye
I don't know what I'm gonna do, but I'm so crazy about you
Even if I don't know where to start
Even if my love is tearing me apart
I just know that you and me
We were always meant to be

Now you're gone

Now you're gone
I realise my love for you was strong
And i miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone with you're pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be?
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I'll go crazy now you're gone

There's an empty place in my heart
Without my anna it will break apart
It won't heal, it never fades away
I'll be thinkin' 'bout you everyday

All I Ever Wanted

All I ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
I know that i Love you
Oh baby why dont you see?

All i ever wanted
Was to see you smiling
All I ever wanted
Was to make you mine
I know that I love you
Oh baby why don't you see
That All I ever wanted
Was you and me

I'm so alone
Here on my own
And I'm waiting for you to come
I want to be a part of you
Think of all the things we could do
And everyday
Youre in my head
I want to have you in my bed
You are the world
Your in my eyes
All i ever wanted in my life

I Miss You

I don't wanna feel
The way that I do
I just wanna be
Right here with you
I don't wanna see
See us apart
I just wanna tell you straight from my heart

I miss you

I can't sleep, I just can't breathe.
When your shadow is all over me
Don't wanna be a fool in your eyes
When all we had was built on lies

What would it take, for you to see
To make you understand that I always believe
You and I, can make it through,
You still know I can't get over you

Black

Black is the colour is see every day
day and night i see black
black is my heart
black is my soul
black is my life
Life is my black hole
never ending with pain in every inch
what will i find at the end
i will nvr know
just wait in my shell, i will do
waiting, and keep waiting i do
but my dreams nvr come true
for you, it will nvr come true
nvr i get what i want, that is so black
red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet?? NO
my life is not a rainbow
i wish it was
but i nvr see that coming true
what the fuck im i talking about
rainbows?? fuck, something is wrong with me
im just stupid, yea i know u know
just a stupid ass hole
nothing better to do in his life
just be a stupid dick
black black black
eishh, whatever la.....

Lamb of God - Laid to Rest

If There Was A Single Day I Could Live,
A Single Breath I Could Take,
I'd Trade All The Others Away.

The Blood's On The Wall,
So You Might As Well Just Admit It.
And Bleach Out The Stains,
Commit To Forgetting It.
You're Better Off Empty And Blank,
Then Left With A Single Pathetic Trace Of This.

Smother Another Failure
Lay This To Rest

console Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself,
See Who Gives A Fuck.

Absorb Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself.

I'll Chain You To The Truth,
For The Truth Shall Set You Free.
I'll Turn The Screws Of Vengeance,
And Bury You With Honesty.

I'll Make All Your Dreams Come To Life,
And Slay Them As Quickly As They Came,

Smother Another Failure
Lay This To Rest
console Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself,
See Who Gives A Fuck.

Absorb Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself.

See Who Gives A Fuck

FAILURE
If There Was A Day I Could Live,
If There Was A Single Breath I Could Take,
I'd Trade All The Others Away,
I'd Trade All The Others Away.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=34AV3mos89w

Ipoh Trip

This weekend, i spent my time at Ipoh, cous bday
it was fun !!!

1st day we went for left for dead, visit a ghost house, play in a play ground, throw bottles at shops..hahahah

2nd day was his bday party, normal family thing, after that
we went clubbing, the best thing about clubs in ipoh, u can wear anything and be any age..hahah
they don't check ur ID =)
had a few drinks at the club
after the club, we ate cheesy kai (cheese chicken) yummy !!
after the kai, we went to dharma's house for another drinking session
talk talk talk talk
went home around 6am something
still talking in the house
we slept when sun rise

3rd day, nth much happened, i was sleeping almost the whole day
at night we went to see watchman at jusco
the movie was ok
after the movie, we went to eat

4th day, went home to KL


so, that was my weekend, it was fun, but i used up a lot of cash =(

Selling Xsjado team skates

selling xsjado team skate, still is good condition
i was not a heavy skater, just normal grinding
the skates has new blank wheels
size 10.5, so if ur size 10 or 11, should be fine
selling for rm500

Im so happy !!! New shoes !!!

ill make this post short and sweet, cause i have 2 sleep (mid terms tom)
y i am so happy?
i got 3 pairs of shoes !!!
its super fresh, 3 converse shoes babe !!!
my parents were in AUS for a week ( Help my bro there )
i asked them 2 buy Converse shoes cause the Converse shoes is Malaysia Suck balls all together came up 2 about RM 550
owh ya, b4 my parents went to AUS, they got a new camera, 10 mega pix =)
just all i got from AUS, not shirts or pants, no quicksliver or bilabong
I DONT CARE !!, i happy with the converse i got
I think i got 16 pairs of shoes now, i think, i lost count =(

Black with gold lines - Rm125

Purple - Rm 125

Shining Magenta - Rm300 (when u wear this shoe, the feeling is nice, its not like any other converse shoe, its like u are wearing a nike or puma shoe, the soul of the shoe is thick and its light)...i will take very very very very good care of this shoe =)

BLING BLING BABE !!!!

My new babies !!!

If Only You Knew

If only you knew how happy, you have made me
how important you are to me,
and how cherished you are in my heart...

If only you knew the warmth of your face,
the sparkle in your eyes,
and the radiance of your smile...

If only you knew how safe i feel when I'm near you,
the lengths i would go to make you happy,
and the strength of my feelings for you...

If only you knew how lonely i am when we're apart,
how luck i feel to be a part of your life,
and how wonderful you truly are...

If only you knew what you mean to me,
you would look me in the eyes
and simply say...
" i love you, too"

Random update

The pass 2 weeks was ok
some good days, some bad days
i have been missing dance class for the pass 2 weeks =(
but its ok, cause Jacob was not teaching, i think he is busy with shows
i miss dancing !!!!
I got some very good dance experience last week
i was dancing Malay Contemp , at perak
Represented HELP
it was fun, but i missed Valentine day =(
nothing to cry about, i dint have a date n'way
came back on 15th morning 4am =_=
reach home, slept for about an hour
then straight to the airport, to send my bro to AUS
my parents went along 2
i had to stay at my grandma's house for a week, it was boring !!!
but now, 21 feb, im back home, home sweet home
was talking to my bro on the phone yesterday
he said i will be very happy when my parents come back =)
i wonder what they bought, i think it is a shoe, Converse !!!!!!
today i go mid terms !!!!
WTF wei !!!
and i am so not ready !!!
FISH STICKS !!

p/s i got a 2nd mother and that person is jovita..muahahahah

For a princess

Fun we have togther, me and you

nobody else can replace you, because u are ireplaceble

no car, money, person can give me the joy you give me

when im with you, there is ntg else 2 do, just stare i do

ur eyes, they tell a million storys

never, i will understand you, cause you are like no other

unique in ur own way

that what makes you, you

few years ago, i saw this girl

i was shy (Smiles)

to shy 2 talk to this girl sitting all alone at the Conner

when i did not see her anymore, every weekend

i felt regret for not making a move

years passed, but 1 fine day i saw a girl that reminds me of that girl back then

can it be?, its just 2 good 2 be true

but it was true, dreams really do come ture

just belive and u will get what u want

keep faith, dont lose it

keep trying, dont give up

keep praying, dont stop

keep....well, just keep everything you belive in

just seeing you makes my day

you are like a princess, maybe you are

only wants the best, that why it is so hard to please you

i dont know if im the rite person for you

but if only you would know how i really feel

you would know, if only you can see what is inside me

till the next we meet, you made my day

Friday sucks !!

FRIDAY

Lets see what happen
i went 2 college early, hoping jiunn came early, we wanted 2 do something
he over slept,hahah, i dont blame him, he also dint have any class that day
after that, i was sitting down at the HELP hall way with my psp waiting for class
class started, i went in late, dont know for what reason
bla bla bla bla at class
eh wait, its not bla bla bla
hahahah
study skills is fun !!
its like my motivation class =)
than i and Fier went Spinky, the other dint come, all went back home
and now he is a official spinky member, that makes him kinky
he sent me 2 KJ
listened 2 emo songs
OWH YA, IM ALONE IN THE HOUSE UNTIL MONDAY !!! woot woot
went back, bath, left for Andrew's party at soul out
went there, ate, talk to andrew, meet old friend
after that went becca's house
left becca's house

WENT 2 SUPPER CLUB
this is where the fun happens !!!
Drank like fuck!!!, i wanted to get drunk for some reasons
take my CHILL PILLS =)
dance
dance with random chicks
haizzzz
it was fun
can home by cab
gopal stayed over my place
when i went home, terus tidur
but when i was going to bed
i felt something in my stomach
i ran 2 the window and VOMITED !!! woot woot !!!
hahahahahah
slept, woke up and i missed class !! =(...damn, i was like WTF !!!

hahahah..so thats my Friday, it sucked

My life

Today was ok, nth much happened
went to college, bla bla bla
classes ended at 2
after that we went for lunch, then went back 2 HELP
i and kat had 2 work on our IT project
went home with kat
reached Majid Jamik
it was raining
i walked in the rain
i got wet
went in the bus
sleep in the bus
the bus was smelly
woke up, legs started to hurt
got home, around 7, went for lunch, i dint have lunch at college
now, im infront of my PC, just looking at it
well, thats my life, plain, nothing special, nothing interesting, just plain old me

My wonderful dream

i had this wonderful dream just now
it was me with a girl that i think i know, im not sure, cause it was very fuzzy..but i think i know that person
i was talking 2 her about something


than she ask me "how do you know what is real and what is not real?"
she said "maybe this is an illusion, maybe u are an illusion, even me"
than she kept playing with my mind, going behind me, beside me, in front of me in a blink of an eye
i dint know what was happening, at 1 moment, she was on top of me and i was lying down, she gave me a kiss
she ask me again, "is this an illusion??"..i answered back saying "no, this is not an illusion, its the real thing"
She asked me "how do you know if it is real?"
i told her cause i can feel ur body, your heat, and ur face
she said "NO, this is an illusion", she told me something b4 she left, she said "i must learn 2 tell the difference between reality and fiction"

After that dream, when i woke up, i was thinking, maybe my life is an illusion, i will never know, i must know what i can get and what i cant get, what is real and fake, what feelings are real or fake


lol..well, its only a dream, but it was nice, and the girl was very beautiful, some people many not think so, but everybody has their own taste

IT WAS ONLY A DREAM

Random-ness

i dont know what 2 write now, no poems, no topic, no pics..
ill just do a recap..hahah

CNY
nth much happen, dint get any ang pow(i'm not Chinese, dint expect anything)
just went back 2 my dads home town, Ipoh
the only interesting thing i did there was DOTA..hahah
played like for 8 hours, i seriously had nothing to do
bought DVD
just about all

I had college on wednesday
most col's are having holidays for a week =(
but its all good, nothing 2 do at home
have been stoning at the house, its better i go to col
get to meet friends and go to the place we all get kinky =)..hahah

Thursday
Today was nice, i dint have math class..
Mr.Joel(math teacher) injured his leg
will be going 2 MOS later
hope everything goes well

till my next post
-SicX out-

Light

Walking, i keep walking, never knowing what awaits me at the end
is there a end too this road?
ill never know, i just have to find out
A risk i have too take
too find out what nobody can tell me
If i don't, 1 day, i will be asking myself, what was at the end of the road?
Do what my heart says
nothing less, ill just do it
Fail i might, but knowing that i tried, that's the best part
The road looked dark, scary, full with dust
a light i saw at the end, it called out my name
it was hinting me to take that path
shall i take it?, not knowing what is that light
took it i did, it was hard to walk in this road
but, towards the end, it got better
the feeling that ill reach the end, i had in me
i reached the end, what i saw?
i saw the light, it was brighter than the sun
it was beautiful, like nothing i ever seen in my life
i was happy i took that road
now, i know what was at the end
i will live 2 tell this tale
saying "I found the light it my life, I'm always happy when that light is beside me"
*PAUSE*
it all went blank.....
it was a dream, only a dream
i was confused,was that dream a sign for me??
2 find my real light?
I think it was
ill find that road and make it a reality
i will find my light
ill take any chance that i see 2 find this light, searching up, down, left, right
if only this dream was real =)
You would already be in my hands

I'm happy and i dont give a fuck

happy as i can be
This feeling had evaded me long enough
i finally found it back
im happy i did
IS IT A GIRL U MAY ASK?
nah !!!
im happy cause im free
no worrys, just my self
i like it this way
be my self, not the man wearing a mask
now, that im free
i can focus on things that really mater to me in life
my passion
dint get this feeling in a long time
im lovin it™
i dont care about the things that i cared so much about last time
FUCK IT !!!
my life, my way, on the high way
never let it get in the way of my passion that i love in life
my passion comes 1st, than only you..hahah

i dont give a fuck what people say 2 me
"u cant dance... ur 2 big... did you break a bone?..u look ulgy, when people see you the will run"
they talk 2 much..next time i hear that..ill ask them "wanna battle? ass hole"
i do it cause i love it..i feel good when i do it
no girl, no guy can stop me..even if i suck at it..ill keep on trying, until my body cant handle the pain

the thing that i plan to change in my life now is *****, and i think i can do it
as i said.*******
Guess i can say that im a "jakun"..i dont wan to tell you what makes me a jakun..malukan diri je

HELLO WORLD !!!!

Not to be named

Sitting down as time flys

tik tok, tik tok, the clock goes

as i pray for time to fly

it never answers my prayers

So am i, still waiting

waiting to be stunned

Stunned by the look that i desire so much

im waiting and still waiting for that too happen

Sitting down on the floor

looking at people passing by

Hoping i see that face

despite all the waiting, it dint come

Listening to our song over and over again

its on loop and ill keep it that way

people know me as the man that can never be moved

only the sight of that face that can make me move

the sight of this person

makes me complete

never less, never more

im PREFECT

this person

when is not in my presents

lost i feel in this small world

not knowing left, right, up, down

forever sitting at the same spot

still praying

still hopeing

maybe, just maybe, she feels the same way too